Connect the dots, la,la,la,la!

Ah, today was a good day! I didn't want to get out of bed at all! But, my dad ended up talking to me and I have no clue what happened, but I was up and at the gym with my dad in no time. We also went to drop his shirts off at the dry cleaner, get my car washed and went to go get my car smog, which it didn't need so I didn't get it! Silly girl, my registration isn't due until May. Yes! That is $300 I can save. My dad also wanted to take me to Starbucks, but ever since I had a Nasty(with a capital N) Carmel Apple Cider, Starbucks just doesn't have the spark it use to. I kind of want to gag whenever I think of it. Sad, I know but something good came out of not going to Starbucks. You know when you look at someone and you both are thinking the same exact thing! Ahh it is great! Einstien Bagels. Ahh, again! We ended up taking a trip which was cool because it was like we both were going down memory lane. Explaining, when I first got my permit for driving. My dad would let me drive, every Saturday morning to Einsteins. We would get a dozen bagels, ahh. I would move back to Vegas for family, Carey's Pub and Einstein Bagels. But! My dad said just wait, in New York they are going to be so much better! Well if thats the truth than maybe I will be living in New York! I love food! I most likely am going to gain weight in New York. Oh, boyeee that could be a good thing!

We finally made it home and I ate 2 bagels! Hello to many carbs! I wanted to take a nap and be a vegetable all day long. But I didn't, I helped my mom make orderves for her small group tonight. I couldn't stop eating them! Actually, I can't stop eating my whole break. I think I have gained a couple of pounds. Besides that we made lotion and stuff too. So,it was a pretty productive day.

As my parents went to their homegroup, I went out to dinner with my friend Stac-face. We went to Sushi! I was down to eat everything. I order this Japaneses Lasagna roll and let me tell you that was a mistake. Yuck! There were things I tasted in the roll that I didn't recognize. Not yummy.

I was suppose to meet up with some other friends but, yeah...I am too much of a grandma. Especially after a hard, hectic session and all the mental games that are playing in my head.

Speaking of that my dad went to Costco and bought me some SAME-e Mood Plus! The greatest stuff. I am very afraid, when I move to LA and NY that my depression and anxiety will come back, I can kind of already feel myself getting anxious, it is running through my vain's. I don't like taking drugs or anything that will sedate me. I use to do that until I started relying on the Lord. Then everything went away and really hasn't been back. I trust in the Lord and SAM-e that all will be well. SAM-e also helps with joints and liver, plus it is natural! Yeah! I took some today and I could feel it. It pepped me up and made me more awake. Normally when I have my mood swings, depression, yadda, yadda, yadda, I tend to get tired and unmotivated. And only my mom is allowed to talk to me or see me. She knows everything. She is my rock here on earth. With out her, I don't know where I would be. My mom is the one who talked me down of most of all my anxiety attacks until I trusted the Lord with them. I think it is amazing when I surrender my trouble to God, He takes care of them better than anyone else could.

I remember a friend was telling our homegroup about a disorder he had and one day he woke up and didn't have it anymore after he spoke to God about it! There is much more to the story but I think it is all a miracle, I believe and feel it everyday!

One prayer answered is, I needed a truck to move my bed to LA! Just one of the many things I have to pull out of my butt in the next week as I move. Well, I got a call from John Mickel, a friend who moved to LA already, and he has a truck and he is going to help me move my wonderful bed (many people say, not to get me started on talking about my wonderful, loving, soft, cuddly, embracing, best friend of a bed I have. Hmm, I wonder why?)

I am stoked that John Mickel will be in LA. A friend, something I am going to miss from SB, a lot! And you know who you folks are. I sure do.

I can't believe I am already driving back to VC tomorrow! I just got here. :-( Well life goes on and on and on, right?

Baby, it is cold in Vegas!

Wow! The past couple of days have been good! The shopping went wonderfully with my family. My Mom, Dad and Sissy went. We decide, unexpectedly to play dress up with my Mom. We all ended up buying her new outfits; it was like a fashion show. She didn't have a choice in what kind of clothes she was to try on, she just needed to stay in the dressing room and we took care of the rest. I guess you could say it was pay back for all that back to school shopping she did with us over the years. After a couple of hours doing this we all were really hungry. So we stopped at Chevy's, one of my new favorite places to eat!

That night I got tricked into house sitting for my Aunt. I was asked when I got to town if I could do it, but I did not give a definite answer and told my Aunt to ask my cousin Nikki. I guess she assumed...I would already do it, because she called me and left a message on my voice mail that they got to Tahoe and yeah. Grrrr...They have three dogs and a mansion. I can't believe I was complaining about living in a luxurious home! But, I wanted to be with my family. Anyways it was goooooooooooood and my cuz is going to do it for the remainder of the time. I felt kind of bad because my cousin is home from being in the peace core. She teaches hygiene in Guatemala and I figured she would want to stay with her family. No! She was more than happy to do it! :-)

That morning I woke up and fed the dogs and for breakfast I had Lucky Charms, but I don't feel any luckier? (I know I am a dork!) I sat around for a few, then decided to get up and go see my sister at work and my mom was there getting treatment for her knee. It was so cool to see my sister work with her patients. She is all grown up! She is a Physical Therapist. Watching her made me think, "What am I doing with my life! Shouldn't I be in a career yet! What am I doing?" I think everyone goes though this thought process. I asked my sister about it and she said, “It was normal. You just have to keep on moving forward.” Yeah, yeah, yeah...

Later that day I was planning on going to the mountains with some friends. We were thinking Red Rock or Mt. Charleston. They both were freezing. We decided to go to the one that was most cold. We actually thought we were going to be able to hike. Hahaha! We got up the mountain and it was cold! There was snow and ice and stuff I haven't seen in years.

We were determined, so we started to hike. COLD! We stopped at one spot to take some pictures and it was an icy spot that everyone would slip and fall at. Me, myself and I could not stop laughing at others pain! I am cruel! But I ended up slipping and falling at that same exact spot and Allison, my little Asian with the video camera got it on tape. Lol! Payback is a _____! We hiked some more and it started to snow! Then it started to snow some more, we decided we should leave and go get some hot cocoa at the lodge. It was so beautiful to sit there with my friends and sip cocoa, watch the snow fall and relax.


Me and Vanessa trying not to fall!


Allison and I, strike a pose!


Silly Girls!


Pretty Girls!


Hahaha! The struggle to get back to the car!


The Beautiful Lodge!

We made it down the mountain and I dropped my friends off at their destinations. Then I went go meet my sister to hangout. We went out to dinner, at Fizoli's. This place is cool, it is Italian fast food! I have never seen an Italian fast food place! The food was pretty decent. Next we headed off to Nordstrom’s Rack. Big, big mistake! Eating 3 different kinds of pasta and then going and trying on clothes is never fun. Not cool.

The night was over and I went home to watch a movie with my parents. I fell asleep on the couch until 2am, always a bad idea. And today, I am going to get my driver's license renewed, a smog check, visit with my Nana, have lunch with Omar and try to see Mike and Becca. Busy, busy day.

No more sinus infection!

Yeah! I woke up this morning and guess what!?! I didn't have a headache! Thank GOD! I have been having sinus problems since the 18th of December. I finally got some relief. I still have a cough and my nose is running, I guess I better go catch it! Hahaha, I know I am a dork! Hopefully, now I can eat more things with out them giving me a headache. I couldn't eat dairy, sugar or bread. The side effects of these were nasty! But I won't give you to much information. Heehee...

Now, I am off to spend more great family time with my sissy and parents. We are going shopping! Whether we will buy anything or not is the question.

"Alright missy let's go!" says Dad

:-) Today was...

Great, amazing and a truely blessed day!

Happy Christmas Eve!

Oh yeah! So it begins...

Of coarse I woke up looking like a glamor queen with sleep marks on my face! ;) I walked out and everyone was already up and moving.

I decided to join the pace and make everyone breakfast, yummy pancakes, eggs and bacon!


Yummy!

After this we all got ready and went to church. It was so nice to have everyone there. Mom, Dad, Rob, Brandon, Moose, Chris, Nikki, C.J., Little Matthew, Jeff, Amanda, Kim and me.

After church we ordered pizza and wings from my favorite place! Ahhhhh...yeah! Then we have a Christmas for my brothers, sister and their families. During this time me and my sister had to rush out to go to my Aunts house were my cousins and Nana were. Everyone decided to have their celebration in the middle of the day so it was rush rush rush for me and Amanda. And of coarse my Aunt tries to fix me up every time with some guy who is from a great family and has a very very good job! But this year I guess the guy still had a psycho girlfriend that the family doesn't like, so (that wouldn't stop my Aunt)...Plus I am doing so much right now, aaaaaaaaaaaaa...NO! Maybe one of these days it will work. Lol! Who knows? I am thankful she tries, it's sweet, at least she is thinking of me.

At the end of this day my sissy went home and me and my parents chilled. Many prayers were answered today! Thank you GOD!!!

Brandon!!!

I have been up since 3:30am! Long...............Day! I had a wonderful morning and made it to Vegas safely. Seeing my family is great! When I got home I hung out with the parents and then I went to my Nana's house and spent some time with her. While I was there she ended up giving me a x-mas hair tie. I could tell my Nana really thought these hair things were the cat's meow. As for me...ummm...I'll rock it, so I put my hair up in this red, green puffy ball rubber band decorative hair tie to please my Nana. I told her I would wear it tomorrow when we go over to my Aunt's house for a little x-mas party.

As I left my Nana's house I decided to go to the mall and get some last minute gifts. Forgetting I had the hair tie in my hair. I walked all around the mall, all by myself with my special hair tie. All wasn't lost, but I felt like a retard. Hahaha! But I thought to myself, self...you saw a grown man wearing a white fluffy fur coat at the mall, I think you can sport your Christmas hair tie!

Then dun dun dun... I get home. Brandon was coming over to spend the night! It has been a while since I saw him. It has been almost a year, the time I saw him was last year at his baseball game! Bad Aunt Cassie! Anyways, he came over and it was instant let's play. He told me I was old and he asked me how much I weighted! Thanks Brandon! Well all the hugs and hide and go seek games make up for all the oops! Just kidding I really don't care! I have nothing to hide...

No more wrapping presents! I think my Mom is making me wrap my own presents!

oooooooooooo..............seriously 7 more presents to wrap!

Post post post...

Brandon says, "Merry Christmas!"

Sheah! I have to go beat up a little kid! He is trying to run me over with exercise equipment! Lol!

Tired gotta go!

exit - Brandon screaming! Heehee!



Notice my new favorite hair thing, rockin the 80s ponytail and my GREAT Nephew!

My life is never dull...

This weekend was crazy! By the time Sunday night came around I am exhausted. I got off of work last night and made it home around 1:30am-ish. All I wanted to do is crawl in bed and sleep sleep sleep! When I pulled up in front of my house, I had so many bags to carry in my house. I had 2 camera bags. an overnight bag, my laptop, hardrive and purse. I wasn't really feeling like taking 2 trips so I said to myself, self just leave some stuff in your trunk. That always is never a good idea. I ended up getting this feeling of uncomfortable loss and fear. So I grabbed all my stuff, in one trip, may I add, and started to pray for protection as I walked to my door. I walked in my door and upstairs to my room, got ready for bed, tossed my clothes somewhere and then crashed! 4:30am comes around and I am awoken by glass breaking. I deliriously woke up. I was really confused on what was happening because I was such in a deep sleep. As I kind of came to, I felt like satin was breathing down my neck. What was going on? I kept on hearing glass crack and shatter. There were no voices, screams, laughs, nothing! The noise was so close I thought someone was trying to get in my house through the sliding glass back door. I got up and rushed for my phone to call 911 if needed. But where was my phone? It was somewhere in my room, I couldn't find it. I looked out of my blinds and couldn't see anything. Now mind you I wear contacts and having a disability on top of still being asleep. I saw nothing! At this point I was a little/lot freaked out. So what do you do when you are in fear? Well, I pray. I started to pray over and over again for strength and protection. Finally, I got knocked out and went back to sleep. When I woke up, I was a little confused. I went outside and didn't see any glass or anything on the ground but I did see a truck with no windows. Yikes! I learned that someone broke into his truck that morning and pretty much took everything in the front of his truck. What scared me the most is it was right next to my window. I am on the second floor out my Aunts house but...

What I learned from this situation is sometimes we get feelings when we need to pray for things. God has been speaking to me through the Bible, conversations and premonitions. I think it is cool because for so long I have prayed for the ability to listen and I get it, now! He has blessed me in more ways than I can count. He is my heart right now. I survive because of Him! Sometimes I don't have much emotion but with God he doesn't let me slide. I am getting teary eyed right now just thinking about how much he loves me. Amazing!