1 of my favorites

Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

Not to sound really corny but I would love to meet King David someday. His passion for the Lord is an inspiration that everyone should desire.

Just to note at the moment, some of the other Psalms I love are 13 and 25, plus many many more.

Mark 8:33

Mark 8:33
But turning around [His back to Peter] and seeing His disciples, He rebuked Peter, saying, Get behind Me, Satan! For you do not have a mind [a]intent on promoting what God wills, but what pleases men [you are not on God's side, but that of men].

Everyone has completly frusterating, retarded, wicked days! And! Mine isn't over yet. But I realize where the Nasty Mc Nasty truely comes from and it gives me strength to fight! (Evil but good laugh because the victory is already won!)

Solution: I might just lock myself in my house and become a bible hugger for the night.

Back in Cali!

And it feels gooooooood! If anyone cares... ;)

Sweet!

Vegas Strip...

I went out last night in Vegas, not like one would think. I am pretty sure my going out in Vegas days are over or are they?

My good friend B and I went to meet some other friends at a movie theater on the strip. It has been FOREVER since I have been down there, so it was interesting, in a flashback sort of way. I was noticing life and how people dressed and acted, what they drank and how it smelled, thinking and seeing Las Vegas Blvd in a whole new perspective. The strip is infested with a bunch of sinful behaviors, why am I or was I so attracted to it?

I try to be normal but growing up in Vegas, you aren't that normal. You have/had opportunities, experiences that many couldn't have, in my mind anyways. Being on my old stomping grounds, I realized I am a totally different person than I was. Noticing how much I have calmed down made me frustrated? I had fun when I lived in Vegas and I am having fun again in Vegas! But, I have just as much fun or more going to church in Carpenteria, going to service and helping out with the children's ministry. This idea could be strange to many but...it definitely was not strange to me. I can't lead a life as Nevada Cassie and Cali Cassie or can I? Can I trust myself enough to live in both places with out faltering? Yes, now I can.

Living and choosing where to live is intense. All I want to do is go back to California, find a job, start a life and yeah. But maybe that isn't what the Lord wants. There is life going on everyday, in Vegas, NY, Chicago, Seattle, Lake Tahoe, LA, SB, VC and Carpenteria. I have been apart of many lives and they are going on without me!

Today, I woke up and thought, I am suppose to be in Cali at this moment, but I am not. I was planning on driving back to VC today, but some circumstance with money came up, jobs, and since I am paying for a trip to Israel and not living off the money, life needs to be flexible.

My question to God is, am I suppose to stay in Vegas or leave and how long? Right now that question is so difficult. I am trying to leave but something is telling me to stay. How long? Maybe 2 days to 4 weeks. :? I don't know. I have so much family and friends here that I have known so long, I love it. But when I go back to Cali, I am closer to the Lord, most likely cause that is where I found Him and the love(s) of my life is/are there. Searching for today is never a great option, searching for tomorrow is and I want forever with my Lord and Savior. I have faith He will guide me where I need to be.

But, I am thinking Thursday, will be the day I am allowed to leave Vegas, maybe. :)

I only thought...

...I was coming home on Saturday. :( My Aunt needs me to stay with my cousins a little longer. It isn't so bad, I get to stay with my family a little longer and have a spot in the garage so my car isn't 200 degrees hot! Also she has a pool. It works. ;) But I was really hoping to see the ocean again and go to my favorite places and see my favorite people. :)


Get this, last night at 1am I was dehydrated as all get up and so uncomfortably hot it woke me up! Grrr...I have been away from the heat so long I can't handle it.

2nd day in Lake Tahoe

I flew into Reno yesterday and drove to Lake Tahoe with my cuz and friends. I love this place! If you have never gone to Tahoe, go!

At the moment I am with family and friends. There is going to be 13 people in my Aunt's house! That is insane! Her 4th of July party will have 50 +. My Aunt and Uncle the entertainers. ;)

Today we went out on the boat and water skied for a while. The lake was almost perfect. Then we went back to shore got on the Jet Ski and went out again. The second time I went out on the Jet Ski Karen and I went far far far. I wanted to make it to this castle I remembered from my time in Tahoe before. We were having a great time trying to reach the castle until...Karen pulled a U-turn and went fast over her own wake and through me off! Not on purpose. My ankle got caught on the Jet ski and cracked. Ouch! Would I go again? Oh Yeah! I can walk a little but...it hurts... :( Thank God my sister is a physical therapist. :)