Pop Tarts
My title has nothing to do with my blog. I was eating a Poptart and thought I would share, how I like my Poptarts.
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Understanding Our Own Calling
by Os Hillman, March 29, 2007
..."If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow Me." - John 21:22
Jesus was talking to Peter after he had just had a very important encounter with Him-one of the last meetings the two would have. This was the third time Jesus had shown Himself to the disciples after His resurrection. It is the famous dialogue between Jesus and Peter in which Jesus asked Peter three times if he loved Him. Jesus followed by commanding, "Feed My sheep." Jesus went on to foretell of Peter's future death. As they were walking together, John was with Peter and Jesus. Peter asked Jesus about John and whether he would die also. Jesus reacted sharply to Peter's comment, telling him not to worry about what John's role or purpose was in life. All Peter had to do was worry about fulfilling his own purpose.
As workplace believers we tend to measure our success on whether we have achieved a certain position or stature in life. Even as Christians the temptation to believe that someone is blessed if they have achieved prominence is always confronting us. In His discussion with Peter, Jesus was getting at the very heart of the matter of a person's calling. Peter was worried about whether his friend John was going to get the same lot in life as he was. Jesus told him it should not be his concern. He was to concern himself only with one thing: his own calling before God.
Are you tempted to compare yourself with where others are in their life? Are you dissatisfied with where God has you right now? Be of good cheer-"[be] confident of this, that He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus" (Phil. 1:6).
Lately, I am worrying about where God wants me to end up. The word worrying and God should never go together. Twice in my life I have packed my things and left to go somewhere new. I left Vegas to go to Brooks and I left Brooks to come to NY. I have not problem relocating, but I do have a problem when I don't have a plan and I am suppose to relocate?
At the end of May 2007, my profession as a full time student will be over. Now, what do I do? After NY, I really don't have a plan. Or maybe my plan is not to have a plan. I am 25, single, living in New York, my things are in Ventura, my car and family are in Vegas, I am going to travel some out of country between June and December, I don't want to commit to a job until I am 26 (nice!), I have a pretty good resume with a lot of experience and most likely I could get a job but where/why?
As this devotional stated, we shouldn’t measure our success. Worrying about my future is ridiculous. I should not worry; I should understand my own calling.
Since I have been at my internships, I have started to wonder, is this what I really want? I have done a photo internship with a Celebrity Photographer in LA and now I am in New York interning as a Production Assistant. To speak the truth, I am not impressed by any of it yet. Working long hours for someone or something, I don't believe in and I don't feel is representing me at all is tuff. When this is all over, there will be someone else to do the job I just did and I will just be a bleep on the radar. I know I shouldn't look at it that way but...it’s true!
As my one of my previous blogs stated, we may not be able to see the light in the time of darkness, but when it is over we will see.
Anyways, I have to smile a little because; if I would not have come to NY to do this internship I would have always wondered if I would have liked it or not. God definitely brought out here for a reason. Some of my conclusions on this are to help my Aunt Cathy with her faith, give me more confidence and understanding in life, take me out of my comfort zone to show me He is in control and not my emotions, help me get over my motion sickness (doing that with the buses, subways and trains), letting me see what I would or wouldn't be missing with the lifestyles I am going to lead and many, many more things.
I am glad God brought me out here. It is amazing to see myself change in my likes and dislikes throughout my life. 3 or 5 years ago I would strive for money and the dream job, working 12 hours a day and always being available for more success plus putting in my times on Sunday by just going to church. Now, I want Him and his Will for my life. I would be so happy with my semi little town, friends, family and more importantly time with God. But, only time will tell.
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