Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
I have the FLU...
Ladies and Gentlemen, it is not pretty.
I left work early on Friday and went to the doctor. (BIG SIGH!) Long story short, they stuck a skinny long Q tip way up my nose, way up, so uncomfortable, but it is the only way they could test for the flu. And what do you know! I had the flu with a 101 temperature. Grrr...that was only the first day. I was miserable.
The good thing is...is that it was the first 24 hours of it. If you catch the flu withint he first 48 hours they can give you a preventative antibotic. So nice.
Friday - went to the doctor and stayed in bed all day
Saturday - went to blockbuster and stayed in the living room
Sunday - finally got out and went for a walk
Monday - back to work, but my head isn't in the game
The doctor said it would take 4-5 days to get over. I can't even imagine, if I would not have caught it with in 48 hours. Yikes!
Now, I truely believe that my prayers were answered. Friday, I prayed for healing cause I felt so bad. And by Monday I am back to work where I started on Friday? Huh? Awesome! :)
I left work early on Friday and went to the doctor. (BIG SIGH!) Long story short, they stuck a skinny long Q tip way up my nose, way up, so uncomfortable, but it is the only way they could test for the flu. And what do you know! I had the flu with a 101 temperature. Grrr...that was only the first day. I was miserable.
The good thing is...is that it was the first 24 hours of it. If you catch the flu withint he first 48 hours they can give you a preventative antibotic. So nice.
Friday - went to the doctor and stayed in bed all day
Saturday - went to blockbuster and stayed in the living room
Sunday - finally got out and went for a walk
Monday - back to work, but my head isn't in the game
The doctor said it would take 4-5 days to get over. I can't even imagine, if I would not have caught it with in 48 hours. Yikes!
Now, I truely believe that my prayers were answered. Friday, I prayed for healing cause I felt so bad. And by Monday I am back to work where I started on Friday? Huh? Awesome! :)
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
F.MY.I
Some days I feel like I am in my own personal hell. Yuck! It isn't as bad as hell but some days you just can't see the end of the tunnel. Like today...it wasn't the world that made it bad, it was me in the world that make it awful. And things just kept creeping up on me. Yuck!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
When Harry Met Sally
Okay...Thank you Ms Clay for introducing me to this amazing movie. I never wanted to watch it, why? I don't know! I thought it was old or something and I wouldn't be able to relate. Well, I have something really important to tell myself, tomorrow, You will be one year older and you can sooooo relate. Not to everything, maybe just the part were guys and girls can't be friends. Hmmm...Yeah, I still don't know. Where did the time go.
Conclusion, don't be afraid of older movies and don't judge a film by its cast.
Some quotes from the movie:
Harry Burns: There are two kinds of women: high maintenance and low maintenance.
Sally Albright: Which one am I?
Harry Burns: You're the worst kind. You're high maintenance but you think you're low maintenance.
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Sally Albright: But I'd like the pie heated and I don't want the ice cream on top, I want it on the side, and I'd like strawberry instead of vanilla if you have it, if not then no ice cream just whipped cream but only if it's real; if it's out of the can then nothing.
Waitress: Not even the pie?
Sally Albright: No, I want the pie, but then not heated.
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Harry Burns: Repeat after me. Pepper.
Sally Albright: Pepper.
Harry Burns: Pepper.
Sally Albright: Pepper.
Harry Burns: Waiter, there is too much pepper on my paprikash.
Sally Albright: Waiter, there is too much pepper on my paprikash.
Harry Burns: But I would be proud to partake of your pecan pie.
Conclusion, don't be afraid of older movies and don't judge a film by its cast.
Some quotes from the movie:
Harry Burns: There are two kinds of women: high maintenance and low maintenance.
Sally Albright: Which one am I?
Harry Burns: You're the worst kind. You're high maintenance but you think you're low maintenance.
_____________________________________
Sally Albright: But I'd like the pie heated and I don't want the ice cream on top, I want it on the side, and I'd like strawberry instead of vanilla if you have it, if not then no ice cream just whipped cream but only if it's real; if it's out of the can then nothing.
Waitress: Not even the pie?
Sally Albright: No, I want the pie, but then not heated.
__________________________________
Harry Burns: Repeat after me. Pepper.
Sally Albright: Pepper.
Harry Burns: Pepper.
Sally Albright: Pepper.
Harry Burns: Waiter, there is too much pepper on my paprikash.
Sally Albright: Waiter, there is too much pepper on my paprikash.
Harry Burns: But I would be proud to partake of your pecan pie.
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Turning point
If anyone ever says being a follower of Christ is easy, well...can they really be a believer? Sure, why not! It is not for us to judge who is and who isn't, but, if everything in life was perfect wouldn't you feel like you are in your own little hell? My walk, as a believer, got more difficult when I decided to run towards Calvary. My memory has a fresh idea of a significant turning point in my faith. Wonderfully enough it was through a prayer I prayed from the Word of God. Psalm 139:23-24, Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. After this prayer life was never the same. Test me an know my anxious thoughts! Oh boy! Cassie you are asking for it! These verses are asking God to explore your fleshly heart and point out what the god of this world has done or is doing for you. Some may call it a conscious, being aware or awake of metal decisions.
After praying this, my heart has been convicted of so many things that I have done that DO NOT help my walk with Jesus. Also, life was never the same, I received an instant answer to prayer. Things were coming and convicting me from my past, especially my present and future!
Example:
Past: Past relationships with boyfriends that had no purpose in my life at the time, but somehow the Lord turned it around for good to unveil my eyes to show me where I don't need to go. I kind of feel like Abraham and Sarah in Genesis. Trying to create something in my life before God wants me to have it. Hmmm...
Present: Where I work, at a online photo stock agency as a Content Manager. All the content (photo) that comes in I see or am subjected to in some way. Now not everyone has a mind with peaches and rose, so I see things that my flesh wants to indulge in whether it be sexual or distorted ideas of this world. I try to do searches for flowers a lot! Lol!
Future: Being obedient! And choosing the right road to take when life separates. Before I let go and let God into my heart, I was hard. I still am. Things I want for myself necessarily aren't what God wants for you or me in the future. Now, sitting here thinking that you are suppose to listen to something you can't see, hear, feel, taste or smell. Seem a little crazy in our society. But can your senses be aware of the unknown? You can SEE answered prayers and miracles everyday. HEAR, if you listen closely or tune your channel to God you can sense everything he is telling you, whether it be from the Word, other people, signs, feelings, est. FEELING the Lord is the most joyous, wonderful, amazing, comfortable sensation I have ever felt. I feel his grace and mercy every time I repent and get over myself. TASTE, one of my favorites! I am sure Juniors carrot cake cheesecake is a little piece of heaven in NYC. Hahaha! The land is flowing with milk and honey, we can taste Gods creations everyday. SMELLING the flowers, fresh pines or the ocean breeze is a miracle in its self. God is everywhere. He finds you everyday. You have to take the time to find him and his Will for your life. Because His Will, will win in the end, regardless.
So my encouragement to you and myself everyday is, die to yourself. Don't be so suborn to think you are just who you are and life just is what life is just because. There is a bigger purpose out there, find it!
After praying this, my heart has been convicted of so many things that I have done that DO NOT help my walk with Jesus. Also, life was never the same, I received an instant answer to prayer. Things were coming and convicting me from my past, especially my present and future!
Example:
Past: Past relationships with boyfriends that had no purpose in my life at the time, but somehow the Lord turned it around for good to unveil my eyes to show me where I don't need to go. I kind of feel like Abraham and Sarah in Genesis. Trying to create something in my life before God wants me to have it. Hmmm...
Present: Where I work, at a online photo stock agency as a Content Manager. All the content (photo) that comes in I see or am subjected to in some way. Now not everyone has a mind with peaches and rose, so I see things that my flesh wants to indulge in whether it be sexual or distorted ideas of this world. I try to do searches for flowers a lot! Lol!
Future: Being obedient! And choosing the right road to take when life separates. Before I let go and let God into my heart, I was hard. I still am. Things I want for myself necessarily aren't what God wants for you or me in the future. Now, sitting here thinking that you are suppose to listen to something you can't see, hear, feel, taste or smell. Seem a little crazy in our society. But can your senses be aware of the unknown? You can SEE answered prayers and miracles everyday. HEAR, if you listen closely or tune your channel to God you can sense everything he is telling you, whether it be from the Word, other people, signs, feelings, est. FEELING the Lord is the most joyous, wonderful, amazing, comfortable sensation I have ever felt. I feel his grace and mercy every time I repent and get over myself. TASTE, one of my favorites! I am sure Juniors carrot cake cheesecake is a little piece of heaven in NYC. Hahaha! The land is flowing with milk and honey, we can taste Gods creations everyday. SMELLING the flowers, fresh pines or the ocean breeze is a miracle in its self. God is everywhere. He finds you everyday. You have to take the time to find him and his Will for your life. Because His Will, will win in the end, regardless.
So my encouragement to you and myself everyday is, die to yourself. Don't be so suborn to think you are just who you are and life just is what life is just because. There is a bigger purpose out there, find it!
Friday, January 18, 2008
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Women's retreat...not so much :/
Tonight we had our follow up prayer meeting for our Women's retreat. Many women will say they had a moving time and feel so refreshed...hmmm, well that wasn't the case of faith for me. Before I went to the retreat, I felt like there would be a moving of some kind, I just didn't know what. What kind of moving? ?Yo no se?
I wasn't very excited to attend the women's retreat. When I first heard of the gathering, I wasn't sure I was going to go. But, that wasn't in God's plan or the plan of a handful of women, who knew me. At the point of signing up for the retreat, I had no money, No Money! But, the Lord provided. I had 2 women offer to pay my way. I wasn't so comfortable with that, meaning I wasn't humble enough to accept a helping hand. Of coarse my flesh rejected and justified, the out cry of my sisters to support me, but then the church got involve, oh boyeeee....not condemning by any means but, helping and firmly suggesting I go and they would pay for it. #3, my 3rd offer. Okay, okay I submit. I'll go. Coming aside with all my scholarship offers, I had women left and right asking me if I was going? Even women I barely knew were saying things like, I didn't see your name on the list last week but I am glad it is there this week, I was wondering if you were going.
Through all of these checks and balances, I felt there was a purpose for me to go, like the Lord is going to do a great work in me or something. Hmmm...I still wasn't excited. Gosh!
A vision for this retreat came to me at the last prayer meeting we had before we left to be Women of War. I pictured all of us Armored, standing in a front line all together. No one way behind or already in the battle. We were all unified, taking an immovable firm stand against the enemy. Warriors for the Lord. It reminds me of a time at my Uncle's funeral. After the ceremony I stuck with grandmother. I was immovable. My uncle didn't have the most upright friends of this world, so while all of the attendees were saying there condolences to my grams, these interesting friends of my belated uncle's walked up to her as she sat in her wheelchair. I felt her discomfort and lack of wanting to have attention. It was like shoving, over cooked mushy broccoli in a child's face, who doesn't want to eat it. How much of that can be ignored? Again as they approached, I firmly put my hand on her shoulder to let her know, even though she couldn't see me I was there and I wasn't leaving. She raised her hand and put it on mine in acceptance of my strength for her to be obedient. Warriors, taking command and having strength in a God they can't see or most of the time can't feel until they submit and meet at a God chosen point.
I wish I could say during the women's retreat, I fought the good fight and put my hand on the Lords, but I didn't. The weekend was a struggle for me. I had no desire to go or stay. My dear accountability partner/best friend was suppose to drive and be there with me, but wasn't able to go. Bummer. This put up my defenses. When I was there, I wanted to be alone, I was tired, I didn't want to deal with anything or anyone. I fell asleep during the session on Saturday night and actually the whole weekend, my eyes would roll in the back of my head from being exhausted during all the speakers. I was fighting to stay awake. I didn't sleep well at the retreat. I was struggling with sleeping arrangements and scheduling, est. As you can tell pretty much everything was a challenge. Grrr...
Leaving the retreat I felt guilty, I didn't pay for my time there and I felt like I didn't show up to fight. I let Satan have a huge strong hold on me. The spiritual warfare was so thick and present, I wasn't prepared for it. Haha! This is were Satan looses! I was there! From his attempt to totally take me down, I KNOW where my salvation lies. With God and not the god of this world. Yes, my weekend wasn't what most think it should be, but! I walked away with a spirit of knowledge. I learned how I need to prepare more in prayer and actions before I go to battle. I was caught off guard because I didn't listen to the warning signs of my fellow warriors that I was suppose to go and be immovable against my flesh who was rejecting this time of accomplishing wisdom in battle. A type of battle that was new to me. This is were the Lord is so graceful and merciful. My body got nothing but sickness and torment out of the weekend, but my mind and spirit received a gift of realizing. Realizing I was there and I heard everything I needed to hear. I have been able to stand in the gap for the other women who didn't have a moving time, and relate to them and explain to them, that this was our chosen fight and did we win one for God? I have been able to use skills I learned in workshops to motivate others to hold on to faith in the Lord and study his word. I made new friends, realized goals I want to accomplish and so much more. Through my struggle I found revival that I have been waiting for. What felt like fleshly steps back were fighting spiritual jolts forward. Sweet! And I haven't backed down yet. Get behind me Satan, you have no power here. The Lord IS my Savor, life line and stronghold.
I wasn't very excited to attend the women's retreat. When I first heard of the gathering, I wasn't sure I was going to go. But, that wasn't in God's plan or the plan of a handful of women, who knew me. At the point of signing up for the retreat, I had no money, No Money! But, the Lord provided. I had 2 women offer to pay my way. I wasn't so comfortable with that, meaning I wasn't humble enough to accept a helping hand. Of coarse my flesh rejected and justified, the out cry of my sisters to support me, but then the church got involve, oh boyeeee....not condemning by any means but, helping and firmly suggesting I go and they would pay for it. #3, my 3rd offer. Okay, okay I submit. I'll go. Coming aside with all my scholarship offers, I had women left and right asking me if I was going? Even women I barely knew were saying things like, I didn't see your name on the list last week but I am glad it is there this week, I was wondering if you were going.
Through all of these checks and balances, I felt there was a purpose for me to go, like the Lord is going to do a great work in me or something. Hmmm...I still wasn't excited. Gosh!
A vision for this retreat came to me at the last prayer meeting we had before we left to be Women of War. I pictured all of us Armored, standing in a front line all together. No one way behind or already in the battle. We were all unified, taking an immovable firm stand against the enemy. Warriors for the Lord. It reminds me of a time at my Uncle's funeral. After the ceremony I stuck with grandmother. I was immovable. My uncle didn't have the most upright friends of this world, so while all of the attendees were saying there condolences to my grams, these interesting friends of my belated uncle's walked up to her as she sat in her wheelchair. I felt her discomfort and lack of wanting to have attention. It was like shoving, over cooked mushy broccoli in a child's face, who doesn't want to eat it. How much of that can be ignored? Again as they approached, I firmly put my hand on her shoulder to let her know, even though she couldn't see me I was there and I wasn't leaving. She raised her hand and put it on mine in acceptance of my strength for her to be obedient. Warriors, taking command and having strength in a God they can't see or most of the time can't feel until they submit and meet at a God chosen point.
I wish I could say during the women's retreat, I fought the good fight and put my hand on the Lords, but I didn't. The weekend was a struggle for me. I had no desire to go or stay. My dear accountability partner/best friend was suppose to drive and be there with me, but wasn't able to go. Bummer. This put up my defenses. When I was there, I wanted to be alone, I was tired, I didn't want to deal with anything or anyone. I fell asleep during the session on Saturday night and actually the whole weekend, my eyes would roll in the back of my head from being exhausted during all the speakers. I was fighting to stay awake. I didn't sleep well at the retreat. I was struggling with sleeping arrangements and scheduling, est. As you can tell pretty much everything was a challenge. Grrr...
Leaving the retreat I felt guilty, I didn't pay for my time there and I felt like I didn't show up to fight. I let Satan have a huge strong hold on me. The spiritual warfare was so thick and present, I wasn't prepared for it. Haha! This is were Satan looses! I was there! From his attempt to totally take me down, I KNOW where my salvation lies. With God and not the god of this world. Yes, my weekend wasn't what most think it should be, but! I walked away with a spirit of knowledge. I learned how I need to prepare more in prayer and actions before I go to battle. I was caught off guard because I didn't listen to the warning signs of my fellow warriors that I was suppose to go and be immovable against my flesh who was rejecting this time of accomplishing wisdom in battle. A type of battle that was new to me. This is were the Lord is so graceful and merciful. My body got nothing but sickness and torment out of the weekend, but my mind and spirit received a gift of realizing. Realizing I was there and I heard everything I needed to hear. I have been able to stand in the gap for the other women who didn't have a moving time, and relate to them and explain to them, that this was our chosen fight and did we win one for God? I have been able to use skills I learned in workshops to motivate others to hold on to faith in the Lord and study his word. I made new friends, realized goals I want to accomplish and so much more. Through my struggle I found revival that I have been waiting for. What felt like fleshly steps back were fighting spiritual jolts forward. Sweet! And I haven't backed down yet. Get behind me Satan, you have no power here. The Lord IS my Savor, life line and stronghold.
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