Just a picture for the day.

Simone's, VC

Lol! Ouch!

My friend Mike sent me this video from God Tube. So funny, cause on Sunday...I felt like tackling someone...anyone all day, ALLLLLLL DAY! But of coarse I didn't. I was a lady. Hmmm...but that doesn't mean I won't get a message from God to be an evangelism linebacker one day! Hahaha!!!

Walk for Life

Since I designed the flier for a friend for this blessed event, she said, I am obligated to participated. I would do it anyway. ;) Any support I can give my friends, so be it. So! If I hit you up for funds(sponsorship)do not be surprised! :)

Revelation

As I was driving the 5-hour drive from Vegas back home to Ventura on Thursday, I started listening to the Bible on CD. I listened to all of Revelation. Let’s just say, kind of scary, Heellllllllooo! I am so amazed that I am saved by the grace of God and have a huge lack of understanding, why me? I do not deserve grace and mercy but yet, Jesus was the perfect sacrifice for ALL of our sins. Love that dude.

Driving, while looking at all of my surroundings from my ipod to my car then to nature, thinking that one day the Lord will come back and all material things will not matter. Then I started to focus on people and salvation. Again I started to think, why me? Why does my heart bleed for MY salvation? What about others salvation? Lately in my women’s bible study we have been studying a book on evangelism and I have been and will be attending Reality Stockton evangelism classes with Josh Kehler. At the end of the month a group of people will be going to Stockton to evangelize to the community a couple days before their 1st Sunday service on September 2nd. Salvation for Stockton, how wonderful is that! I can’t wait to hear how my friends rocked Stockton, since I am not going. :( But other great things are in the works for those days. :)

Before I start every journey in a new place, I always think, what great things does God have in store for me and most importantly, who will I meet. Before moving away from Vegas and dragging myself to Ventura/Santa Barbara, I was so excited about the thought of whom I was going to meet and day dreamed about the amazing relationships, fellowship (I never knew could exist) and situations I would get my self into.

A while ago I realized, I wasn’t saved before I went to Reality Carp. I was just going through the motions. One day as I was driving up the coast I started to think about Jesus on the cross. I asked myself, “Why did Jesus die on the cross?” I hate to say it, I didn’t know. That was a rude awakening at 24, I really didn’t like facing. I was religious till I was about 17 or 18, in the Catholic Church. Then my family went through some really difficult times and my mother started to change. She was getting thirsty for knowledge of the Word. So, she started going to different churches (Christian) and my immediate family followed her. I didn’t really like the Catholic Church at all, so it didn't break my heart, the whole priest idolatry thing and male domination I had a problem with. I never understood, why? One could reason that when I was younger I had issues with men being an authority figure, most likely because of my biological father. Unconsciously then I did not see a problem because I was strong and independent. Nothing was going to stop me of being all that I could be in this world, with or without a man. I was a little feistier back then. ;) Thank God for my dad (step) Walter Darling. We have had our trials but what an amazing man that the Lord brought into our family to serve as my earthly father and brother in Christ. Again unconsciously, He has worked in my life through my dad to show me all men are men, but the one who loves Christ is a winner and necessarily won’t take the easy or selfish road out. Still working on some issues, obviously with that comment.

Back on subject, why did Jesus die on the Cross? I had gone almost every Sunday to church, had no fellowship just a non-believing boyfriend, listened in service but never retained any information and definately wasn't accountable for knowledge and wisdon of the Word. But, I thought I new it all and accepted things for the way they were. So what do you do in a time of misunderstanding? Me, myself and I call the Momms! Yes, mom knows a lot about a lot! She knew exactly what to say. We talked for a while about the cross, sacrifices and what they meant. After our conversation I felt a joy I haven’t felt in a long time, a freeing sense of peace running throughout my whole mind, body and spirit. A yearning for more knowledge and wisdom of revelation. From that moment of realization, I have never been the same. The mustard seed that was planted inside me a long time ago was growing.

Now, to actually be saved, there must be a change. Feel a change, see a change, be a change. Walk with Jesus. Christian is Christ plus man. Now for those of you who think we are trying to be holier than thou, we aren’t, by any means. If you call yourself a true Christian, we are people who keep God’s commands and walk like Jesus, so take us off pedestals (some need to say that to themselves), we are sinners who need to be born again everyday. How does being born again feel? For me it feels like ignoring a stranger is in my body. A stranger I never knew but am, everyday. I trip out every time I think of being raptured and being purified. I won’t be Cassie who was made of this world. I won’t love the sin. You sinner! (I say to myself) Lol! I think Chris Farley said that in a movie or something.

I woke up the other day and started to do my daily activities, whatever they may consist of these days, and I thought to myself, ”Have I sinned today? Do I need to repent for anything?” I couldn’t recall sinning, but I repented anyway, right then and there, because I am sure I had thoughts of something I shouldn’t have had thoughts of or a mannerism that wasn’t from the Lord. Hmmm...

Do I have salvation now? Yesssss! My heart is full with confidence that if something were to happen I would see my heavenly Father. Everyday I read my bible and grow in my faith. If I am not near Jesus everyday I know that it gives satan a stronger hold on my worldly flesh. It is easier to get pulled down off a ladder than pull yourself up. With out a strong grasp of knowledge on how to climb up a ladder we never will make it. So be strong, have faith and believe.

Now to a point; salvation for others, what am I going to do? Do I want to see the ones I love burn for eternity because I didn’t know how to say anything? Ouch, no. The Lord has put many non-believers in my life or people who were just like me. Thinking but not grasping the thought. So, my study and prayer is to be more evangelistic in life, be in tune with who the Lord is telling me to speak to and what to say, not to be afraid of strangers, get out of my comfort zone and saving a soul for the Lord. But my biggest request for prayer and most important is for the Lord to break my heart like His heartbreaks for the non-saved. If I can’t feel my heart break for those who are lost, I will be lost when the time comes for me to step up and be a warrior for the Lord. To go through the rapture, I can’t even imagine how to survive with out faith. My loved ones, suffering with out a seed of belief implanted, makes me stop in disbelief. (Big SIGH) This could be the first step. Stop and acknowledge that something is wrong. Then how to fix it? Lord break my heart like Yours breaks. Put me in situations and guide me to others who need to hear about you. I know if it is in His will, it will break me and I will welcome it like there was no tomorrow, cause there might not be.

Psalm 139:23-24, Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

So durning my busy life...

I have just a simple thought. Would you rather watch Grease or Grease 2? I know, I know it isn't like we are curing cancer here, although I wish I had that talent but...I don't. So...which Grease?

Even though I think Maxwell Caulfield is blessed with great looks and I think some of the songs in Grease 2 are hilarious, I would have to say Grease is my favorite. Plus, I like the cars better than the whole motorcycle thing.

Ahhh...the things I have time to think of. :)

Just for my MOM!!! :) Cause she said SO!

So, as you know I am in Vegas, maybe you know that. I really don't communicate to people much anymore unless they ask. So, so, so, I am working event photography...yuke! Jk ;) No, it is all fun and games...sometimes.

Anyways, today I was a mess. I went to the gym did my cycle class and weights felt fine until...I don't know. I had the worst headache, my whole body ached like I was beaten with a metal bat, lost my nose stud down the sink, mind you I have had that since I got it pierced, like 4 years ago and other wrong mind sets were present. O'well just material things and situations of this world. But the real issue here is my mom. She told me I need to start to blogging again. Okay, mom...lately I have felt, as I said earlier, if you want to know something than just ask. But how do you know how to ask when you don't know what to ask? Hmmm...you can ask someone how they are doing, but how are they really doing. Communication. Will they give you the right or truthful answer? Most likely, no. So when you ask people questions get more personal. Like...what was the first thing you thought of this morning? Or are you working on anything? Do you have anything to say to me? What are you thinking about right now? How many times have you thought of ME today? Lol! That is an awkward question, but it will work. And when people ask you about things, "You shall not give false testimony against your neighbor." Exodus 20:16 I know, I know, I have been working on this commandment, it is easier just to say fine when you aren't fine, but don't spill your guts to them, you can always plead the 5th, somethings are better left unsaid or revealed at a later date, you know what I mean, jelly bean!? A good answer to respond with is can you pray for guidance in my life, God to grant me a listen ear to his Will and strength in my life to do His Will (if needed, which is always needed). Even the smallest lies can deter from the biggest blessings God has for you. Keep His commandments, cause the tiniest truth you speak to people may give the most hysterical pleasure to you or others.

So, for my mom today, I blog...I blog today was amazing. She took me out to lunch, to my favorite place (Karey's Pub),then we got pedis and manis together (pedis and manis always make me feel better), we listened to Britt's message on the way home, had great conversations about faith n' stuff and at the end of the day she did my feet (reflexology) and massaged my ribs back into place. Yeah, that hurt!

And just to mention my dad was courageous in taking the sink apart to find my nose stud but it was a goner. Much love Pops! :) Thanks. XOXO

90.9 FM The EFFECT, Las Vegas, NV

So, I was getting out of the gym in Vegas at 7pm ish today. I got in my car turned on the radio and started messing with the Christian stations. Who do I hear!?! Britt Merrick! My Pastor. At first I was like, no, yes, no, I don't have my ipod plugged in...how is this possible...is this really on the radio...wait, is this really Britt or just some guy who sounds like him?...yes...YESSSS it is Britt! I was so excited to hear him on the radio in Las Vegas, I don't know how I made it home. I drove but I don't remember it(not good). His sermons rock my world and make me think beyond what is expected, so good.

There is a station called The EFFECT and you can get Britt Merrick 5 days a week at 7pm, 8pm mountain time in Las Vegas, sin city. Who knew! :)

check it out at www.effectradio.com